post xmas celebration with guzheng gals..

28th Dec'09: dinner+movie+ gaming outing with the wan sin, elicia and suting!

Been ages since I've met up with these gals! We had our post x'mas gift exchanges after dinner. Due to a change in policy, we received more presents compared to previous years whereby it' s lucky draw style. And I really liked the gifts they bought for me...=)

Wanted to play guitar heroes but it was packed so we tried Left 4 DEad 2! haha it was fun trying to kill all those zombies though we encountered some technical difficulties trying to navigate around...

It's my first time playin L4D2!

Alvin and the chipmunks 2! so cuuTe!

Ended watching the movie at 920pm as all the earlier slots were filled up. All of us were yawning before the movie had even started but the chipmunks were funny enough to keep us awake and laughing out loud. Not so bad a movie considering it's jus $6...though the plot was kind of expected.

=Reflections of the happenings in 2009=

HOW TIME FLIES!

2009 will be coming to an end in a few more days.

Having spent the past year juggling school with part time work, volunteering and memorable outings with friends and family, I'm glad to say that I have spent 2009 meaningfully without wasting much time slacking like how I used to in JC. Looking back on the things I've done for the past year, I've definitely achieved some, if not most of my resolutions set in the beginning of the year.

As usual, I have striven to remain financially independent and survived well on my own earnings. This is something which I'm truely proud of myself. No doubt my family is poor but as long as we strive to make ends meet, we can still live a simple life with contentment. =)

Hence, one of my resolutions for 2009 was to volunteer my services at CDAC, the organisation which used to lend a helping hand to me when I was young. While others could afford expensive private tuitions then, I was fortunate enough to be able to enjoy subsidized tuition under CDAC. And I'm glad that I joined Tampines SHG and committed 3 hours of my weekend weekly to the needy. Once again my idea of volunteering has been proven wrong. All along, I thought that I would be on the giving end when volunteering. However, the friendships made and the fun that I've had in Tampines SHG with fellow volunteers and kids is priceless.

The other breakthrough was completing races and marathon. From my maiden race of 8km, I have progressed to 10km, 15km and then to 42km with sheer determination and endless trainings! The sense of achievement gained after every race is a miraculous feeling. Running has also given me new insights into how I should lead my life. Life is like a race too. With uphills and down slopes. Whether you complete the race fast enough will have to depend on your mindset. If u think u can do it, u surely will! =)

Other new interests picked up in 2009 are kayaking and Korean language which I have no inkling of initially.

Both my tutees Junel and Nurul have done relatively well in their studies. Really glad that Junel is able to go to a good school after her PSLE! Impacto mAde...

Looking forward to 2010, the year whereby I'll be away in Shanghai for my exchange! I believe there ll be more 1st hand experiences to come during the trip.=)

mErrY merry xmas!

24th Dec 09: high tea with ms lim; KTV

Met up with our ex-sec teacher, Ms Lim for high tea. Been so long since we last met up with her. The last time we met was during Marc's 1st mth. Now Marc is alr one yr plus le and she's expecting another baby boy to be due in Feb next yr! =)

We are all entering different phases of our lives now with Ms Lim into the motherly stage and us into the adult phase. We have fate to thank for letting our paths crossed each others 9 years ago. Destiny is such a miraculous thing. ^^

Updated each other on our current status and she did really provide some insightful advices for us... After all, she had been through what we are experiencing now...

After pondering for a long time over what to do, we headed to Teo Heng for KTV since we haven sung for a long time. Yesterday's k-session was like a recollection of the old times when we used to hangout at Kbox during our sec school days. KTV with SHY always never failed to get me hIGH! Had so much fun and laughter dancing to NOBODY, SORRY. And we were practically screaming our lungs out when it comes to all these songs.

Tks peeps for making my day once again! =) It was good to have some precious moments spent together before I leave SG. U peeps are really my friends for life. Like how we watched Ms Lim transit into the next phase of her life, let us watch each other enter the workforce, marry, have kids and grow old together.

~no camp for 2010~

shall take back my words for the previous post. Seemed like I ain't gg to make impacto in the 6-8th Jan camp after all... for a veri important person- MUMMY!

I guess it's time to fulfill my role as a dutiful daughter. MUM complained of a lump/tumor lookalike bump on her feet. Initially, I tot it was ... but luckily not. Accompanied her to doc and fortunately, it's nothing serious. Won't affect her but to to be on the safe side, we've decided to let her got for the minor surgery. And this has to be done before I leave SG else there'll be no one to look after her at hme in the day after the surgery. Hope she can recover fast after her op to send me off =)

camp b4 departure.

The next few weeks will be pretty exciting and busy! whee! jus got confirmed for an upcoming CHA camp in 1st week of Jan! 6-8th Jan...actually i missed doing camps! camp instructor is the best part-time job that I've done... been more than 1 year since i did camp.

Hope i will enjoy myself to the max b4 i fly off to china...sHAll give it my best for my first and last camp in 2010. ^^

my travel companion in china...

The one i can't do without in china.

Loving the pink hue and the memories captured with my fav. peeps!

met-ups

12th Dec'09:

Marina barrage with SHHY+JJ+JL (Kite flying + picnic)

This time was unlike our usual outing whereby we just meet up for a meal.

Our second attempt at picnic but this time round at the picturesque Marina Barrage aka the NTU-ADM- look -alike rooftop. We also tried kite flying but to our dismay, our "killer kite" did not fly high high into the sky but seeked to strangle whoever stood in its way. wahaha...Wished we can hang out longer haha but doesn't matter. It's the quality that counts. Loved u peeps too! This is a bunch whom I had spent half of my life with. hehe. our 10th yr anniversary coming le wor peeps! haha are we holding some banquet stuff dining? hehe!

19th Dec'09: Electronics fair plus bitching session with shiyu!
(forgot to take pics)

Anw, finally bought a camera at great bargain at the sale. hehe cheap price with lotsa freebies thrown in! Love the shocking pink that is loud and AA.

21st Dec'09:

"bored" games session, chilling out session with the beloved tkd peeps(ym, wx, cy,hy, shuz, me and sky>> not in pic)

it's been a long time since we met up during hy's 21st party... These pple really made my day! as usual, we went to minds for "bored" games which weren't really that bored after all.

aLTHOUGH we haven been gg for TKD trainings, the occasional meetups that we had once in a while and the bonds that we forged 2 yrs back is surprisingly there...tkS everyone for making it happened.*hearts u all*

after our minds, we headed to aston for dinner and then starbucks near the esplanade there to chill. We had our HTHT session and it was nice hearing evryone's stories and the advices exchanged. At least i know what to do now.=)

Looking forward to the countdown cum steamboat session cum xmas exchange session in hall on 31st dec !

就是开不了口让他们知道。。。

前天，老弟（阿源）终于入伍了！这可是我第一次到德光岛，也可能是最后一次吧！ 毕竟，我也不会有机会去参加他的毕业典礼了。到时候应该会在中国了吧!

尤其是到了说再见的那一刻，心里不经意感到有点不舍。毕竟，大家也生活了十几二十年了。 作天早上醒来，发现一个人在房里，少了睡在地上的他， 我突然觉得有点不习惯。说实在的，心里是有点挂念他！但我却没在道别时让他知道。有时候我也不知自己怎么了。。。 老是不把心里想说的说出来，钻牛角尖。即使在乎心里所爱的家人与朋友, 也很少告诉他们自己是多么地珍惜他们，爱护他们。

我到底怎么了？

是社会的险恶让人不知觉在自己的周围造起围墙吗？或许吧。。。

想到再多一个月就轮到我向家人道别时，心里就有点不舍。目前，白天里，屋子只省下我们母女俩就有点冷清。到时候我离开后，妈就会更孤单了。想到这时，我真替她担心，更加放不下。

或许这次是我该越过自己那关的时候了。 勇敢地向所在乎的人示爱了！告诉他们心里的真心话。俗话中的 carpe diem! Seize the day! 也就是这么来的。把握时机， 珍惜每一天，勇于尝试新的事物，做想做的东西。

如今，离道别的日子也仅仅由于。我将要好好地珍惜与大家在一起的日子，留下美好回忆。
加油吧！我一定行的！=D

examS finALLy enDED!

end of exams.

but somehow I felt no excitement compared to the past few sems when I would get all hyped up about post exams activities right after the paper.

tHis sem is the worst sem ever in my uni!
I bet I won't dare to check my results when the day of results release come cos I'm scared that i will get a heart attack...

ReaLLy worried abt my results but what's done was done. now can only pray real hard and believe in the power of moderation. =) shall enjoy the rest of dec in SG first before i left for AT land in JAN! outings and meet ups with those whom I haven been meeting up with esp SHHY and company!

wenT shopping for my essentials today! Yes, i mean necessities. And not those usual shopping trips that I would indulge in to satisfy my wants for material goods. haha cos i expected cheaper bargains awaiting me in AT land. Must save, save and save so as not to fall into the temptations of vanity items!

Things to do in Dec:

- Meet ups, gatherings with frenS!( KTV, movies, mj, picnic, pubbing)
- More time speNT with my family!
- LEarn how to coOk 3 菜1汤 from mUm.
- Brush up on my chinese and bring out the "Cheena" in me!
- Learn more abt AT land and read up abt the places to visit
- Medical checkup with 4 injections! *faint* ( can I don't take the jabs?=X)
- IT facilitating
- Exercising: jog, badminton, kayak!
- Complete as many shows and dramas as possible! be a 宰女!

tipping point. not.

Really hate to say this but the truth is...
the FINAL EXAMS and DEADLINES are looming and they are just 5 weeks away.

sO many things undone yet to be completed within such a short span of time. Projs undone, ppt not cleared, assignment untouched and worst, I haven been catching up in lec, tuts and readings all this while. GG!!!

Seems like a need for priority reallocation should be done.

Just started on my new job today: weekend IT facilitator
Officially took over the class but I realized I'm bad at classroom management especially for P1 and P2 kids. really hate to admit this but I have a better working relationship with upper primary students.><

After today's lesson, I was contemplating whether to continue with this part time stint in view of my really hectic lifestyle. Somehow I'm not able to achieve a balance between work and study. For the past few daYs I've been crumbling under the enormous stress level that is mounting day by day. Every week just had to pass so swiftly with little work done.

Perhaps I should really weigh my priorities this time round.

Opportunity cost of $240 per month from work. A third class honors degree? Economically inefficient if u think long term. What's more, I alr have the intention to quit cos of my overseas attachment next year. Just a matter of sooner or later. Why not end it once and for all so that they can get someone with better suitability for the job too.

AlrightS! My mind is set. Shall tender my resignation soon. Give chor gin a call tmr.=)

HUi Lin will concentrate on her studies full-time.
Projs, laptop, heaps and heaps of readings, textbooks, lecture and tutorials shall be my bestest companion from 12Oct -4 Dec!!!

I MUST BE STRONG and FIGHT THEM ALL!!!^^

rOUND 2, fiGHT!

yes, recess week officially ended yest.

Into the 2nd half of yr 3 seM 1. tIMe to accelerate and drift in this rat race.

thinGS to do= aplenty.

a mountain of readings, tuts to catch up with pluS 3 projs, 1 presentation, 1 assignment and revision for the final exaM. =S

muST chIOng chIOng CHiong!

was feeling totally demoralise, driveless during the recess week.

so i asked myself:
Why such unhappiness becos of sch work?
I must try to live every day happily no matter how stress life is.
cOmpared to those who suffered from poverty and had their loved ones lost during the recent earthquakes in developing countries, I'm much more fortunate. What they don't have i don't lack.

Yet I still live so miserably. No. I shouldn't be unhappy just because of so much workload. I should be glad and grateful for such privileges. A peaceful life, high standard of uni edu and of course family and friends who are always there to support me.

"Yest is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is present. That's why we call the present a gift. "
Like what the cliche saying says, one must liVe everydaY meaningfully, unraveling the hidden surprises life has in store for us.

shall wave goodbye to little miss gruMpy and welcome little miSS haPPy =) tmR onwards.

JIA YOU and stay strong >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

to someone whom i still treasure as a buddy:

i hope things will stay e same as it is from the start. i believe our friendship will go a longer way than BGRs. i could see that you were trying to make your intentions known to me. but I chose to run away from it.

somehow, I'm not ready for the commitment that BGRs ensue. and I don't want to lose a friend to a wrong decision made in a moment of folly. It is easy to get attached but the level of commitment devoted into the relationship is something which takes two to clap. I haven got any confidence in doing so.

I'm glad that I gave you my honest reply when you asked if u stand any chance. At least we put a stop to everything before it escalates.

Hope you'll respect my decision, buddy.

so MANy deadlINes to meet...*rants*

iT's halfway through the hellish recess week. anD there's so much to be completed within such a short span of time.

I"m not done with He 306 when the dateline is in 3 more days. =X JIAYOUUUUUUUUUUU!!!
HE 312 and He 210 proj meetings on thURs and fri which i've yet to prepare for. ARGH!
and to worsen the matter, the stupid migraine keeps haunting me. =(

A date worth looking forward to will be 12 Oct when I"m officially tuit-less after my 2 kids end their exams and my tUrn to MUG!!! =) freed sat and sun morning for my studies. I hope.

B4 i look forward to my rest and relax session on Fri and Sat evening with my dearies, I mUST coMPLETE (note to self) :

1) ******HE306 assignment by THURS NIGHT 1/10/09!
2) *****HE 312 research by WED NIGHT 30/9/09!
3) ****HE 210 by THURS NITE/FRI/SAT!

P.o.s.i.t.i.v.e THAT I CAN DO IT! =)

call me a slowpoke.

Yes I am indeed one.

Somehow, life has turned into one whereby everything seems to revolve around me like flashes. The speed @ which time flies is faster than my reaction. HoW? WHat to do? stop and stare? Definitely not.

EspeciallY when I have 101 things to do on my mind, I must aim to achieve what I plan for this week.... my days shall and will be packed to the brim from day one of recess to end of recess week....=X

Yet there is the opportunity cost of going out with friends. Lesser studying/ project-ing time. I must strike a balance between both. One week is really not enough.

This is a real test of my time management skill. failed or pass? we shall see.

I must SURVIVE the comINg WEEK!!!

pRojects are squeezing me dry...

Is population growth a problem? Shld govt influence population growth?

Did financial globalisation play a role in AFC? Did financial globalisation play a role in GEC? Do you think financial globalisation is good for Asia?

And which topics to do for HE 306: Housing policy or effects of agglomeration economies? How can I crap a term paper of 12-15 pg alone?

Projects are taking a toil on me and these are the questions that I've gotta answer by the end of September as their deadlines are approaching.

The long HAri raya weekend isn't a holiday to enjoy at all.
Stucked with all these qns in mind, I wonder how I'm gg to past this week and the next.

SO much to do yet so little time. And for once, I realized I'm not enjoying Economies of Scale.

Enough of grumbles. Back to work.

P.s: Please let me overcome all these with strength and determination. How I wish I can fastforward to Jan 2010 when I would be in China enjoying my GIP.

yAyness!!! ^^

feLT so haPPy today!!! finaLLy gt a chance to realize my wish of gg for an overseas exchange...^^

I got selected for GIP: Work and Study China... and HUIYi too! So if all's well, we'll be there for the 1st half of next year!!! omg i'm feeling so excited!!!

and the best thing is that wei jian our FYP grp mate encouraged us to go and assured us that he'll take care of the admin stuff for FYP while we are there... So touched by his gesture!!! HOpefuLLy, the three of us can make an invincible team together!

in the meanwhile, reality hits hard. I must work doubly hard for all my projects and modulEs this sem, LEVEL uP before gg for my "vacation" next sem! JIA YOU!!! PUT in UR BEST, HUI LIN!

tHis is what I mUST do!

Knowing is not enough; we must apply.
Willing is not enough; we must do.

headache, headache go away!

been experiencing quite a severe migraine since Tues night...and it's bothering me till now.=X

Perhaps it's my body's way of protesting to the enormous stress level that's accumulating for Yr 3 Sem 1.

FLooded with many projs and assignments this sem and it's definitely a hell lot compared to the 1st 2 yrs.

In addition, I've got 2 runs(NIke hUman race 09, New Balance Real Run 09), APEC, SHG and tuits to juGGle with.

LAST but not least my FINAL exams to prepare for which is about 2 months and 1 week away.

I need a better sense of time management.

RECESS WEEK is coming.

Imagine the life after RECESS WEek.

Definitely more hellish and gruesome than my present circumstance.

惠琳！不要轻言放弃，否则对不起自己。

证明给他们看你是行的！加油，加油，加油！^^

心灰意冷

我的天空今天有点灰。

压力越来越大，专题作业开始找上门来，让人忙得不可开销。

升上大三的日子也与以往不同。

辅导课也变得更加严厉，负有挑战性。

在许多压力的冲击下，难免会渴望有个能依靠的人在身边扶持。

这时心里不经意就会想起他。

虽然我一再告诉自己过去的事早已成为历史，但回忆还是让人折腾。

尽管已经这么久了，我怎么还是放不下呢？把爱放开吧。。。

2009 的大半年已经过了，是该追求自己所渴望的幸福，快乐了！=）

目前，唯一能做的就是畅开心怀，以快乐的心态迎接每天的挑战。

眼前的路虽然不好走，但路是靠人走出来的。

我一定要战胜一切患难！！！加油 X 10000000000！

a reasOn for me to keep on running from now till Nov...

NEW BALANCE REAL RUN 2009
THE ULTIMATE X-TERRAIN CHALLENGE
10km – 4km Trail + 0.6km Sand + 5.4km Taxiway / Road

Event Details

Date	8 November 2009, Sunday
Venue	Changi Exhibition Centre, Changi Aviation Road
Flag-off	7.00am (10km) & 7.30am (15km)
Start & End	Changi Exhibition Centre

joLted to my senses...

Yr 3 SEm 1, into week 4.

Oh dear... 1 month into the sem and I've so much on hand undone. piLEs of readings, lec, tuts and textbOoks are still waiting for me. To add on to the heavy content, I have 3 bOoks on hand to finish: ANgels and demons which I'm totally in love with, Secrets of a millionaire and obama's biography.

Attended 2 workshops for the past week: Resume writing and interview workshops.

And I never knew how much preparedness one needs to do before seeking a job. Totally enlightened by the 2 instructors who taught us the secrets and techniques of making our resume stand out among the many thousands applicants.

iT was an awesome and enriching week for me because I finally understood what is required of me to land myself in the dream job tt i"m seeking for. And it's never too late to start gaining experiences for the competencies required in your future job.

It's time to revamp my resume which is so dead and not concise. Subsequently, it will be to take action and source for internship opportunities. I need to be more pro-active in building up my experiences!

So MUCH to do yet so little time! I must JIA YOU, JIA YOu, JiA YOu! =)

~whAT does noT kIll huI LIn maKEs hUI LIn stroNger thaN ever~

The Penultimate Year: the yr of change!!!

SCHOOOL STARTED AND i'M INTO THE 2ND WEEK OF YR 3 SEM 1!

tHE 1ST 2 YeaRS HAD beeN practically a honey moon for me. getTing involved in FOCs, CCAs meetIng and TKD trainings and havIn a hall on campus to laze my days and nights away without fretting about waking up early in the morning just to beat the morning crowd on trains.

My life has turned upside down with effect from YEAR 3 SEM 1. NO more hall but the comfort of a home to turn to when I'm tired after a day (4 hrs of journey on the train and buses + 3 or > hrs of schOOling)! haha anD i wiLl be seeing HY like more than my famIly coS shE'll be my companion on my "journey to the west" to collect scriptures daily! BUt it's betta than nothing at least we have each other to talk to on the lOng and tiring journey. i'm thankfuL that SG is merely a red dot and not as big as China where we have to take ages to travel from one end to another.

aCADEMICALLy-wise, I realLy hope to "level up" and attain a second-upper degree in 2 years time! my future depends on it and i have to be more pro-active in learNIng and being world-wise. Intentions for overseas exposure and internships are brewing and I really hope to do my utmost besT to pursue my interests in the SG toUrism INdustRy and the bOOming cHINA. I shALL stUdy smarT and not sTUdy too hard in the rigid waY~ aja aja fIGHTINg!!!

ANd after beiNg troUBled for the past 2 weeks over my sparselY scattered 5 day week timetable,I've managed to change it to a 4 day one! yAy frI wiLL bE freE!!! but nOt for entertainmenT alwaYS. iT shaLL be my sTUDy day cuM prOJ day cum relAx daY! noW, I have more reasons to LOOk forward to TGIF and greater motivations to spur me on during scHool days....

tHE flashbacKS of my 21st: a mini- affair >>>

reaLLY can't believe thaT I'm already 21 yrs and 17 days old!!!=X

celEbrated my 21st @ costa sanDs chaLet with different grps of friends( sec, jC and uni!!!) between 3rd-6th AUG and it was really a memorable and unforgettabLE one due to the haPPy and bad moments that ensued.

I tried to have a different celebration this yr compared to my prior ones which were usually celebrations over some dinner or entertainment. AT leaST it worked out finE and i'm gLAd to have spEnT it in a fuN and coSy way with grEAt coMPANies.

All was well on the first 2 days of celebratIon until the 3rd night when we had a combined celeBration for Yiming and me. The culprit was none other than the BBQ food catered which landed half of us with food poisoning. What was supposed to be a heaRty celebraTion for 2 girls turning 21 turned disastrous when the bday gal and her family started to complain of vommiting and nauseousness at night. One by one, the other two started to experience the same symptoms and we had no choice but to call off the night activity and sent one of them to CGH in the middle of the night. BEing the one who initiated the idea of a chaLet, I realLy felT guilty to have landed my guests in such agony.=X

Despite the complainTS made to the BBQ caterer,the only irresponsible response we got from that was just a mere apology which really didn't help in our circumstances. HopefuLLy, thE NEA will do us some justice or else the phobia that we've developed thereafter this incident would really haunt us on.

it"S now or never...

God gave us one life. Either you live it to the fullest and treasure every moment lived or regret when it's too late...

I chose the former.

iF you want to live to the fULLESt, start by making a difference to every single individual. U'll never know how impactful u'll be until u tried. ~aJa aJA, fiGHTing HUI LIN!!!=)

Just some thoughts to share abt life after so much that had happened in JUL...

The lotus is the most beautiful flower, whose petals open one by one. But it will only grow in the mud. In order to grow and gain wisdom, first you must have the mud --- the obstacles of life and its suffering. ... The mud speaks of the common ground that humans share, no matter what our stations in life. ... Whether we have it all or we have nothing, we are all faced with the same obstacles: sadness, loss, illness, dying and death. If we are to strive as human beings to gain more wisdom, more kindness and more compassion, we must have the intention to grow as a lotus and open each petal one by one

sHould i?

I'm in a fix.

duNo whether i should book a chaLet for my bday.

Why I sHould Book:

=> to have fun and something memorable on my bdaY esp when it's my 21st!
=> and now there's a member's promotion 3d2n chaLet at juSt $100 and it's really worth it
=> a stayover plus gd time to catch up with my frens and have heart-to-heart talK into the wee hours of the nIte

What's holding me back:

=> its during the weekdays and my frens may have other commitments eg FOC, work etc... so scared that they cannot make it...
=> will be a waste of $ if no one free to go...
=> and lastly the most crucial reason pulling me back: my parents won't be able to celebrate with me as they have to take care of my critically sick ah gong... and it doesn't sound right for me to have a celebraTion when my ah gOng is gg to leave us anytime.=x

shLD i or shLD i not?

SOMEHOW...

iT seems that history is repeating itself.

I dunno why but at evry period of the year, it always happens.

Perhaps I think too much but...

I'm contented with the way things are right now.

Friendship shall suffice.

it'S the fiNAl coUNtdoWn!!!

5 more days of routine work coupled with savoury dishes whipped out by maggie and taDAA!!... my holiday job stint at SMS will end and I can officially plAy and nuA like nobody's business before sch stArts.=D

tHE past few weeks had been pretty busy for me with work, tuit, SHG, gatherings and not to mention the fun on foot challenge which was my 1st time joining an amazing race style of competition with my besties.

caUght "hairY plotter" with tKD peeps and it was just average.There's no climaX and Dumbledore just died so abruptly towards the end of the movie. I certainly could say that the bOok was much more exciting than the movie which was filled with scenes of blooming BGRS between the young adults. lUckily, i caught it @ $6 so it wasn't such an opportunity cost.=x

To do list before sch starts:

NO.1: trEAt my familY to a gd meaL

NO.2: RevamP and tidy up my room. mAKe it as conducive as possible for study and relaxation. I need a gd "baTTle field" to fiGHt the depreciation of my gPA.

No.3: Trim my hair

From JUL 2009 onwards, i sHALL and wiLL...

continue to give my best in evrything I do especiaLLy in my academics and relationshIps wif my loved ones. A gd balanCe of KinshIp and friendsHip with school and work will be sometHing that I will want to strive for in the second half of the year.

It seemed like yesterday when I was setting my resolutions for the new year 2009 yet in a whiffy, we are already halfway through 2009. Time really waits for no one...I must seize every opportunity that comes along and manage it well.

The most important thing is to hAve a littlE fun each day and be jolly cos life is short. ^^

我們是不是該知足 珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有

=稻香= 周杰伦

對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨

跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走

為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落

請你打開電視看看

多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去

我們是不是該知足

珍惜一切

就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡

隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑

微微笑 小時候的夢我知道

不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依

回家吧 回到最初的美好
不要這麼容易就想放棄

就像我說的 追不到的夢想

換個夢不就得了 為自己的人生鮮艷上色

先把愛涂上喜歡的顏色 笑一個吧

功成名就不是目的

讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義

童年的紙飛機

現在終於飛回我手里 所謂的那快樂

赤腳在田里追蜻蜓追到累了

偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了

誰在偷笑呢 我著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了

哦 哦 午后吉它在蟲鳴中更清脆

哦 哦 陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎

珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有
還記得你說家是唯一的城堡

隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑 微微笑

小時候的夢我知道 不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑

鄉間的歌謠永遠的依

回家吧 回到最初的美好

Though this is a rather old song, I liKE the attiTude that's in it.shAll try to acHieve wads being advocated in red above.!!!^^

After ah gong's incident, I've learnt to see tHings on a broader view. To cherish and live everyday hapPily as if it's ur last. And not to regret only after u've lost it.

HAve some fun and laughter each day.

it's all in e mind. If u think u will be bored by life's mundane routines, u shall and will be. Learn to adopt a positive mindset and strive towards happiness becos it is in the reach of only those who bother to seek for it psychologically.

Every day is a new beginning filled with mysteries and adventures for you to unravel.

I shall explore by challenging myself to say "YES" to the new and unforeseen experiences.

sLOwly or Somehow, I started to see my purpose in life after so much that had happened.

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Primarily as a daughter who has the responsibility to be there for my parents when they age.

Secondary, I want to help get the poor out of the vicious poverty cycle having being a victim to it too.

And the way to contriBute and make a difference is through my volunteering at CDAC on every Sat. Rather than laze my time, these 3 hours spent with the kids will hopefUlly groOm them into young responsible aduLts who will continue to make impacto on others in future.

Thirdly....

FourthLy...

Fifthly....

I'm still in the midst of discovering it.

Till den, i shall continue to make my prescence felT in my 2 roles in life.

wad a greaT daY!

I haD a great Time with my fellow SHG volunteers @ cash studio kTv!!! (FYI: its e old bedok princess i'm referrin to) =) we were reaLLy hiGh to e maX such that we extended our singing hours till 1130 pm when we were supposed to end at 9 pm.

and the plAce was really coOl with disco ligHts and superb sound systeM. The rooM we got intiallY for 10 pax was darn biG! they converted the princess cinema to a kTV rooM which was reaLLy spacIOUs! And the charges are lesser than that of KBOX and of course abit steeper than teo HEng bUt I feel the ambience they have there was worth the price...so utility was maximised!

oH dear, time reaLLy flies when one is enjoying. Come to think of it, school will be restarting soon in one month's time. hUMPH... duN care muSt reallY enJOy myself to e max b4 the vicious cyCle resumes.

And huiying, wen.... if u happened to read this, haha i realLy can't wait to go out wiTH u gals this hOli like how we used to in e past. haha realiSed that we haven't been meeting much in 2009 except for bdays... haha i want to go wii, sing, drink+ girls'talk!!! mUSt find time in JUL k b4 scH strtS. IF nt it'll be hard to meetup after that...

n thIS is e process of liFe...

I can't help but reflEct deepLy Upon life's fragility after visiting my cancer-strickened ah gong who had an operation after a bad fall. The ah gong I visited was bedridden @ the ICU with many tubes pricked through his nose, arms and lower body. Though he was still conscious and able to talk, it was a stark contrast to the ah gong I met a few months back during CNY. He was able to walk then. BUt now...hOPefully, he will be able to recover and discharge soon. I really couldn't bear the thought of my ah gong being cooped up in a rOOm that has nothing but four walls and it really hurts to see him suffer from such pain and misery in hospital.

Such is the reality of life. The processes of birth, growth, ageing and death that everyone of us has to go through in our life. No matter how rich, famous, capable one is in his life, one just can't escape from the God of death.

Suddenly, it occurred to me that nothing is more important than having a good health and being able to live happily. Without health, no matter how much money you have in ur savings, you won't be able to enjoy life.

And personally, I don't want to have regrets at my deathbed. TouchwooD la but just my personal tot below...

If doomsday is to be here within half an hour, I want to be the kind who will be able to look back at my life in contentment and with no regrets.

To put it simply, I want to live my whole life to the fullest.

And this starts with a positive mind coupled with the phrase" take action!!!".

To love with all my might. To give and to take.

And lastly, to be the real and unique ME that is truely happY.

oNE life, lIVE it, cOLour IT!!!

=officially sick=

After 2 weeks of continuous outiNgs+ lack of exercise+ unhealthy diet, i caught the fLU bug..!!! hopefulLy not some H1n1 i hope. I doN't want to be qurantinEd.

UltimaTE siaNess... coS my nose just couldn't stop saliavating while @ work.

NOw is GSS period.... i want to go sHOP and exercise once I get weLL...

wad a bZ daY!!!.... but i'm loving it...

waS super duper busy @ work till I didn't have the luxury of visiting the ladies... But i LIke it becos the day just zoOMed and before i knew it, KNOCK OFF TIME!!!
Thereafter my work, I went to tuit Lee Yang.

anD tHe next few dayS would be packed to the brim with more and more activities...

wOOts. what an action-packed monTh! ^-^

a great day with great companY !! ^-^

It was a lovely Wed. HAd a gREAT tIMe shoppinG and catchIng up with hazel, my dear ex-colleague @ OSI whom I had not seen for 2 years. Time really flies, man! All was like a dream.

2 years ago, I was fresh out of JC, waiting for my A levels results and Uni entry. Back then, I was working as a temp receptionist cum admin assist @ OSI. The 3 mths spent there were really experential and meaningful! GaiNEd an insight to the term "office politics" which is commonly used by workinig adults as well as become a victim to it... owell, that'S lIFE..BUT I also got to know great peeps like JEAn, Hazel, Regina who had impacted my life in some way or another. It's really heartening to get in touch with them again once in a while and know that they are doing great! =)

So the period after my temp stint at OSI fast forwarded and va BOOM...I alr completed 2 years in NTU and on my way to the 3rd yr. I must really cherish my years in school and not regret it when i enter the workforce.

ANd we shOPPED shOPPED sHOpped!!! I know my previous post reminded myself not to splurge on shopping sprees but I couldn't help it when i saw this korea-imported bag at Illuma: a big leather sling bag with unique design that was going off at half its original price of $89.90. COntemplated against buying it initially but gave in eventually and bought it home at $45 after I found it to be practical and long-lastIng. fElT so worTh iT!!!

anD yUP, I dyed My hair brown and iTS really loud and A.A( attract attention). Duno to be happy or sad. Happy becos alot of pple realise the change in my hair colour yet sad becos the effect of the colour doesn't complement my skin tone.

wadeva. Just hopE my hair colour will brighten my darkest moments if I happened to have one...

AND i reallY need to exercise!!!!! Cos i'm growin fat from all those binging and goodies that my colleagues had been givin me. it's been 2 weeks since I ran after the marathon.

my whole body is itching for a workout! Shall exercise soOn! Somehow, I like runnIng because it makes me feel alive! I like the way my body listens to the command of the mind even when my muscles are starting to feel sore. Sounds cuckoo la but I really think i reached the mind-and- body- in- nirvana kind of staGE after runNing! LOL.

OH MAN, deficit!

I realised I've been splurgIng recentLy. OOps...!!! i need more self control...

reminder to self: sAve, save, save!!! pls exercise more self control!

I shall not buy any more clothes from online or shopping sprees no matter how tempting and cheap they are.

I shall buy things that I need! NECESSITY not LUXURY GDS to maximise my utility.

the ONLY luxury gds I can buy:

1) digital camera

2) hp

*ALL ITEMS EXCLUSIVE OF THE ABOVE MENTIONED GDS SHALL NOT BE BOUGHT!*

life is getting abit too mundane...

Somehow, i'm starting to feel sick of my temp job. I need a breather. And more excitements to rock my life.

Looking forward to the mini getaway this sat with buddy!!! =D

new breakThrough (PART 2) !

yAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! I COMPLETED ADIDAS SUNDOWN MARATHON 42km!!!!! wahaha...

was really glad that I managed to achieve what I set for myself at the start of the year and that was to complete a marathon. The euphoria and sense of achievement that I've gotten after running for 7 hours was unbelievably great. I'm so proud of myself that I managed to persevere, hang on and run despite the sore muscles that were taking a toil all over my body... Maybe it's the I-have -a-banana-before-the race effect or the fact that is running at night that kept me running continuously for the 1st 25km because usually my threshold is 10km and i will strt to walk thereafter.

SOmehow, I guess it was my mind that did a great job in psychoing my body to keep going despite the weariness. At the start of the race, I kept telling myself to run at least 21km for the first half before stopping. Otherwise, I would definitely not be able to regain my momentum. And so my body abided my mind's instructions and viola! I DID IT WITH A POSITIVE MIND THAT DRIVED MY BODY TO THE FINISHING LINE.

Nonetheless, I could still admit that running 42km wasn't an easy feat because my body went out of my mind's control while I was on my journey back. But thanks to junlong who was constantly keeping to my pace and encouraging me to move on, I conquered the 42km.

I guess this would be my first and last marathon haha... since I just want to challenge myself to a new limit and try for fun... Till then, it would be another 2 weeks before I resume running.

inspired by a commoner...

tODay there was practically not alot of stuff to do @ work... the oNli thing I needa do was to note e inventories senT in at the cargo lift area. SLACK job man!

haha luckily I had my colleague philip(aka PaPa) there to slack with me...and so he was telling me about his life story. How he managed to work his way up despite the fact that he was in normal acad stream. And his willingness to strive for what he wanted be it in material terms or others really inspired me to be daring to achieve what I plan for my future. I was really amazed by how his foresight for his future manage to realise under such planning. haha now he's my idol because despite being one who isn't really academically wise, he managed to carve a career path for himself and support his family through sheer determination and peserverance. He's really a nice chap whom I can crap around with and I'm glad I have great colleagues at work who made my day.

Note to self:
Start planning for your future and strive towards that direction. Once i've strted working, I must learn how to invest in insurance and property...

M.I.A yet aGain...

this time he did it again.

did a disappearance stint like how he did a month ago.

Like how history repeated itself, MUmmy called me up while I was working and worriedly ask me to sms him becos he just won't pick any calls. I don't know what's wrong with him but my instinct told me that it must be the gal who made him eMo again. Indeed I was.

I really don't understand him. Why would a big guy like him want to hide from reality? Why couldn't he be strong enough to just pick himself up and moVe on from a relationship which had ended? Why must he still wallow himself in a miserable relationship that won't realize? Though I' m not really a love expert, I see the practicality of making myself live betta than the party who hurt me once. And I'm really glad I did because that's the best revenge.

Did he know what he did really hurt the closed ones who cared about him most? i bet he didN't because despite knowing that MUmmy has heart problems and couldn't stand these kind of shocks, he still repeated the act again. HE really disappointed us.

new breakthrough! ^^

feLt so accomplished after todaY's saUCony 15km race @ECP because I managed to set another record for myself and that's to complete a race which was originally beyond my physical means... YaY!!! 3 marathons completed so far (from 8.4km to 10km to 15km)....

The jourNEy along the 15km race route was really a test of my physical and mental endurance. Several times, my mind struggled with the idea of walking but luckily thanks to junlong and jaryl who were keeping to my pace, I banished the thought. haha I kept psycho-ing myself not to stop. Otherwise, I'll slow them down. What's more I wanted to make use of this race to prepare my mind for the worst and ardous journey I could expect @ Adidas Sundown.

to sum it up, it's all in the mind! When ur mind is positive, ur body will just autoadjust its mechanism no matter how weary it is... And this goes the same for life, a positive attitude will always drive one towards the direction of his goals despite the barriers that stand in his way... havIng a POSITIVE mIND is half the battle won!

nexT challenge: ADIDAS SUNDOWN MARATHON 42km next week

to be continued...

Soul searching...

What a typIcal tueS sPent @ work.

With much P/N, material no, warehouse codes, billings to be done to the extent that my eyes started to give way to tireDness. BUt i'm blessed with great peeps like maGGie, amelia and aNa who made my days @ work seem less boring. Though they were malaysians, I'm quite touched by the warmth they've shown towards a "newbie" like me . coMpared to my previous admin job experiences @ other companies, the peeps here are much more bonded and they really take care of you like family. Imagine having freshly cooked lunch served right in e office pantry. Though it is simple fare, it beats gg down to the kopitiams to squeeze with the lunch crowd. What's more, I personally enjoy homecooked food more than those "oily" food sold outside. So it's a double bonus, yay!

This reminded me of an article i read some time ago on "zao bao" with regards to the differences between city dwellers and country folks in rural areas. More often than not, in our pursuit of higher social status, we tend to build walls ard us, hoping that we'll be safe from those harbouring any ill motives. But usually in our attempts to protect ourselves, we became isolated, devoid of happiness due to the lack of human touch that made us truely human.

No matter how much politics exist in the real world, I just don't want to become a puppet of urbanisation.

I want to be the REAL me with no pretense.

To laugh as loud as I want to. Cry as hard as I want to. Talk as much as I want to . Share as much as I have. Love as deep as I like. Hate as much as I do. And most imptly to behave in sync with my feelings. I don't have to be be the kind that everyone will like. I just have to be ME, the one and onlY 100% me.

你不是真正的快乐

人 群中 哭着 你只想变成透明的颜色

你再也不会梦 或痛 或心动了

你已经决定了 你已经决定了

你 静静 忍着 紧紧把昨天在拳心握着

而回忆越是甜 就是 越伤人了

越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深浅浅 的刀割

你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

这 世界 笑了 于是妳合群的一起笑了

当生存是规则 不是 你的选择

于是妳 含着眼泪 飘飘盪盪 跌跌撞撞 的走着

你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐 你的伤从不肯完全的癒合

我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河

难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了 然后才后悔着

你值得真正的快乐 你应该脱下你穿的保护色

为什麽失去了 还要被惩罚呢

能不能就让 悲伤全部 结束在此刻

重新开始活着

Somehow this song depicts the mood I'm in right now...

eLmo without the L

iTS been days since I've updated...

Life's been rather mundane with work from 830am-6pm on mon-fri followed by tuits and SHG on weekends. SOmehow, I'm starting to feel bored having worked only for 2 weeks when my contract is expected to end in 2 and 1/2 mths time... everyday, I'll be looking forward to my knock off time at 6pm as well as the arrival of FRi. And often weekends just has to pass so swiftly. Well, I know i"m not the only one facing this but if this were to happen to me in the next 40 years once i've stepped out to work, it'll be so sick man! At least for now, it's just for a few mths...I really can't bear the thought of being stucked to a 9-5 office job in future... will be bored to death lo...>_<

Come to think of it. Maybe I should consider a job in the airlines industry to fulfil my dream of travelling ard the world... OR Teaching to make impactO on the younger generations? argh, I'm still seeking the answer to where my career interest lies...alritEx, shall make it a point to unravel my real interests this holi. =)

And I felt so emO for the past few days...really sorry to frens whOm i've dao-ed becos of tt.

Somehow, I felt lost.
Lost for words, lost of happiness, lost of freedom/time...

In the past when I'm too free, I'll always complain of boredom. But now that my life is packed to the max, I felt kinda strained and sick of the routine. What is is that I actually yearned for? Freedom? Or living my life to the fullest?

Completed!

CLeared my kayaking one-star course today after 2 days of lessons @ Kallang PA Water Venture... Yay! Can go kayak @ Bedok Reservoir which is just across my house. I've been wanting to do that evrytime I go jogging ard e reservoir and now I can. =D

Today's lesson was interesting in the sense that we learnt how to do rescue work out in the deep open sea as well as have a mini expedition to the SG flyer area. Though it was tiring and difficult to stay on course, the scenery out there was worth the effort. I shall clock my kayaking hours during this vacation and aim to move on to a 2-star... more practice pls!

Kayaking for these 2 days was great and I'm sure I would grow to like it.

My very first blog!

finAlly here's my very own blog...! welcome welcome...

Well, I'm not really used to the idea of blogging because all along I've had the habit of penning down my thoughts in my diary. Traditional ain't I? that's me... Nonetheless, I would still like to join in the crowd and create a platform for myself to share the fond memories and experiences I've had.

The uni exams has long ended and it's been 2 weeks into my 3-mth-long summer vacation... yayness! like finally la! A time to chillout with my dear friends whom I haven't seen for months, gain new experiences and enjoy myself to the fullest before the vicious cycle of lec-tut-projs -exams repeats itself again next sem. To think that I still have 4 more sems to clear before grad...Too long or too short? Seems like I'm in between. Too long because I still have to go through the worst which is not over yet and too short as I'm graduating soon like in 2 yrs time. Sometimes I can't help but wonder whether I have really reached the maturity level of a 21year old grown-up. The childishness in me hasn't changed...

To sum it all : I'm just a i-dun-want-to-grow-up girl living in a you-have-to-grow-up-kind of world...

Enough of rantings. Here's the to-do-list on my mind for this suMmer:

1) Spend as much quality time as possible wiTh my family whom I've really been neglecting due to my stay in hall for the past 2 yrs...

2) Catch up with my dearest frens whom I haven't seen for quite some time... really missed the fun I had with those peeps... so OUtiNGs, OutiNGs and more outingS to come!!!

3) Earn $$$ and most imptly, to save them for my next holi trip, diving course! Shld be attainable pRovided I save my keep from my temp admin job cum part time tutor cum part time events job wisely... I SHALL NOT succumb to the temptations of online shOppIng... haha but then again, its really cheap and worth it to shop online...

4) Continue to strive towards my resolutions set at the start of the year and make impactO!

5) Complete the upcoming races: Saucony race (15km) and Adidas Sundown Marathon 2009(42km)

6) Continue to make a difference to the CDAC SHG kids as well as to my 3 kids: Junel, Lee Yang and Nurul.

7) Learn something new like kayaking (in the process), korean language ( in the process), hip hop dance(maybe at CCs? cos I really envy those who can really groove well to the beat of music. So must make a personal breakthrough despite being bad @ body coordination)and maybe pick up photography? but i need a proper camera to start with...

8) ChionG Korean, HK dramas, taiwanese variety shows and Bleach anime that I've missed...

9) PLan a mini getaway if time permits... Maybe some diving trip to neighboring island like Tioman or Rendang? I feel like taking a deep plunge into the ocean to unravel the wonders that lies beneath..DIVING! Or some shopping trip in m'sia...whatever it is, I really need to take a breather away from the concrete jungle that i'm in.

10) Seek solace in the comfort of novels coupled with songs from my fav radio station YES 933 would make my days swee enough!

11) during exams: input>output = weight gain
after exams: output> input = weight loss thru exercise...

work, sleep, play!!! =D