tODay there was practically not alot of stuff to do @ work... the oNli thing I needa do was to note e inventories senT in at the cargo lift area. SLACK job man!
haha luckily I had my colleague philip(aka PaPa) there to slack with me...and so he was telling me about his life story. How he managed to work his way up despite the fact that he was in normal acad stream. And his willingness to strive for what he wanted be it in material terms or others really inspired me to be daring to achieve what I plan for my future. I was really amazed by how his foresight for his future manage to realise under such planning. haha now he's my idol because despite being one who isn't really academically wise, he managed to carve a career path for himself and support his family through sheer determination and peserverance. He's really a nice chap whom I can crap around with and I'm glad I have great colleagues at work who made my day.
Note to self:
Start planning for your future and strive towards that direction. Once i've strted working, I must learn how to invest in insurance and property...
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
M.I.A yet aGain...
this time he did it again.
did a disappearance stint like how he did a month ago.
Like how history repeated itself, MUmmy called me up while I was working and worriedly ask me to sms him becos he just won't pick any calls. I don't know what's wrong with him but my instinct told me that it must be the gal who made him eMo again. Indeed I was.
I really don't understand him. Why would a big guy like him want to hide from reality? Why couldn't he be strong enough to just pick himself up and moVe on from a relationship which had ended? Why must he still wallow himself in a miserable relationship that won't realize? Though I' m not really a love expert, I see the practicality of making myself live betta than the party who hurt me once. And I'm really glad I did because that's the best revenge.
Did he know what he did really hurt the closed ones who cared about him most? i bet he didN't because despite knowing that MUmmy has heart problems and couldn't stand these kind of shocks, he still repeated the act again. HE really disappointed us.
did a disappearance stint like how he did a month ago.
Like how history repeated itself, MUmmy called me up while I was working and worriedly ask me to sms him becos he just won't pick any calls. I don't know what's wrong with him but my instinct told me that it must be the gal who made him eMo again. Indeed I was.
I really don't understand him. Why would a big guy like him want to hide from reality? Why couldn't he be strong enough to just pick himself up and moVe on from a relationship which had ended? Why must he still wallow himself in a miserable relationship that won't realize? Though I' m not really a love expert, I see the practicality of making myself live betta than the party who hurt me once. And I'm really glad I did because that's the best revenge.
Did he know what he did really hurt the closed ones who cared about him most? i bet he didN't because despite knowing that MUmmy has heart problems and couldn't stand these kind of shocks, he still repeated the act again. HE really disappointed us.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
new breakthrough! ^^
feLt so accomplished after todaY's saUCony 15km race @ECP because I managed to set another record for myself and that's to complete a race which was originally beyond my physical means... YaY!!! 3 marathons completed so far (from 8.4km to 10km to 15km)....
The jourNEy along the 15km race route was really a test of my physical and mental endurance. Several times, my mind struggled with the idea of walking but luckily thanks to junlong and jaryl who were keeping to my pace, I banished the thought. haha I kept psycho-ing myself not to stop. Otherwise, I'll slow them down. What's more I wanted to make use of this race to prepare my mind for the worst and ardous journey I could expect @ Adidas Sundown.
to sum it up, it's all in the mind! When ur mind is positive, ur body will just autoadjust its mechanism no matter how weary it is... And this goes the same for life, a positive attitude will always drive one towards the direction of his goals despite the barriers that stand in his way... havIng a POSITIVE mIND is half the battle won!
nexT challenge: ADIDAS SUNDOWN MARATHON 42km next week
to be continued...
The jourNEy along the 15km race route was really a test of my physical and mental endurance. Several times, my mind struggled with the idea of walking but luckily thanks to junlong and jaryl who were keeping to my pace, I banished the thought. haha I kept psycho-ing myself not to stop. Otherwise, I'll slow them down. What's more I wanted to make use of this race to prepare my mind for the worst and ardous journey I could expect @ Adidas Sundown.
to sum it up, it's all in the mind! When ur mind is positive, ur body will just autoadjust its mechanism no matter how weary it is... And this goes the same for life, a positive attitude will always drive one towards the direction of his goals despite the barriers that stand in his way... havIng a POSITIVE mIND is half the battle won!
nexT challenge: ADIDAS SUNDOWN MARATHON 42km next week
to be continued...
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Soul searching...
What a typIcal tueS sPent @ work.
With much P/N, material no, warehouse codes, billings to be done to the extent that my eyes started to give way to tireDness. BUt i'm blessed with great peeps like maGGie, amelia and aNa who made my days @ work seem less boring. Though they were malaysians, I'm quite touched by the warmth they've shown towards a "newbie" like me . coMpared to my previous admin job experiences @ other companies, the peeps here are much more bonded and they really take care of you like family. Imagine having freshly cooked lunch served right in e office pantry. Though it is simple fare, it beats gg down to the kopitiams to squeeze with the lunch crowd. What's more, I personally enjoy homecooked food more than those "oily" food sold outside. So it's a double bonus, yay!
This reminded me of an article i read some time ago on "zao bao" with regards to the differences between city dwellers and country folks in rural areas. More often than not, in our pursuit of higher social status, we tend to build walls ard us, hoping that we'll be safe from those harbouring any ill motives. But usually in our attempts to protect ourselves, we became isolated, devoid of happiness due to the lack of human touch that made us truely human.
No matter how much politics exist in the real world, I just don't want to become a puppet of urbanisation.
I want to be the REAL me with no pretense.
To laugh as loud as I want to. Cry as hard as I want to. Talk as much as I want to . Share as much as I have. Love as deep as I like. Hate as much as I do. And most imptly to behave in sync with my feelings. I don't have to be be the kind that everyone will like. I just have to be ME, the one and onlY 100% me.
With much P/N, material no, warehouse codes, billings to be done to the extent that my eyes started to give way to tireDness. BUt i'm blessed with great peeps like maGGie, amelia and aNa who made my days @ work seem less boring. Though they were malaysians, I'm quite touched by the warmth they've shown towards a "newbie" like me . coMpared to my previous admin job experiences @ other companies, the peeps here are much more bonded and they really take care of you like family. Imagine having freshly cooked lunch served right in e office pantry. Though it is simple fare, it beats gg down to the kopitiams to squeeze with the lunch crowd. What's more, I personally enjoy homecooked food more than those "oily" food sold outside. So it's a double bonus, yay!
This reminded me of an article i read some time ago on "zao bao" with regards to the differences between city dwellers and country folks in rural areas. More often than not, in our pursuit of higher social status, we tend to build walls ard us, hoping that we'll be safe from those harbouring any ill motives. But usually in our attempts to protect ourselves, we became isolated, devoid of happiness due to the lack of human touch that made us truely human.
No matter how much politics exist in the real world, I just don't want to become a puppet of urbanisation.
I want to be the REAL me with no pretense.
To laugh as loud as I want to. Cry as hard as I want to. Talk as much as I want to . Share as much as I have. Love as deep as I like. Hate as much as I do. And most imptly to behave in sync with my feelings. I don't have to be be the kind that everyone will like. I just have to be ME, the one and onlY 100% me.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
你不是真正的快乐
人 群中 哭着 你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦 或痛 或心动了
你已经决定了 你已经决定了
你 静静 忍着 紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜 就是 越伤人了
越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深浅浅 的刀割
你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
这 世界 笑了 于是妳合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则 不是 你的选择
于是妳 含着眼泪 飘飘盪盪 跌跌撞撞 的走着
你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐 你的伤从不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了 然后才后悔着
你值得真正的快乐 你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什麽失去了 还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让 悲伤全部 结束在此刻
重新开始活着
Somehow this song depicts the mood I'm in right now...
eLmo without the L
iTS been days since I've updated...
Life's been rather mundane with work from 830am-6pm on mon-fri followed by tuits and SHG on weekends. SOmehow, I'm starting to feel bored having worked only for 2 weeks when my contract is expected to end in 2 and 1/2 mths time... everyday, I'll be looking forward to my knock off time at 6pm as well as the arrival of FRi. And often weekends just has to pass so swiftly. Well, I know i"m not the only one facing this but if this were to happen to me in the next 40 years once i've stepped out to work, it'll be so sick man! At least for now, it's just for a few mths...I really can't bear the thought of being stucked to a 9-5 office job in future... will be bored to death lo...>_<
Come to think of it. Maybe I should consider a job in the airlines industry to fulfil my dream of travelling ard the world... OR Teaching to make impactO on the younger generations? argh, I'm still seeking the answer to where my career interest lies...alritEx, shall make it a point to unravel my real interests this holi. =)
And I felt so emO for the past few days...really sorry to frens whOm i've dao-ed becos of tt.
Somehow, I felt lost.
Lost for words, lost of happiness, lost of freedom/time...
In the past when I'm too free, I'll always complain of boredom. But now that my life is packed to the max, I felt kinda strained and sick of the routine. What is is that I actually yearned for? Freedom? Or living my life to the fullest?
Life's been rather mundane with work from 830am-6pm on mon-fri followed by tuits and SHG on weekends. SOmehow, I'm starting to feel bored having worked only for 2 weeks when my contract is expected to end in 2 and 1/2 mths time... everyday, I'll be looking forward to my knock off time at 6pm as well as the arrival of FRi. And often weekends just has to pass so swiftly. Well, I know i"m not the only one facing this but if this were to happen to me in the next 40 years once i've stepped out to work, it'll be so sick man! At least for now, it's just for a few mths...I really can't bear the thought of being stucked to a 9-5 office job in future... will be bored to death lo...>_<
Come to think of it. Maybe I should consider a job in the airlines industry to fulfil my dream of travelling ard the world... OR Teaching to make impactO on the younger generations? argh, I'm still seeking the answer to where my career interest lies...alritEx, shall make it a point to unravel my real interests this holi. =)
And I felt so emO for the past few days...really sorry to frens whOm i've dao-ed becos of tt.
Somehow, I felt lost.
Lost for words, lost of happiness, lost of freedom/time...
In the past when I'm too free, I'll always complain of boredom. But now that my life is packed to the max, I felt kinda strained and sick of the routine. What is is that I actually yearned for? Freedom? Or living my life to the fullest?
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Completed!
CLeared my kayaking one-star course today after 2 days of lessons @ Kallang PA Water Venture... Yay! Can go kayak @ Bedok Reservoir which is just across my house. I've been wanting to do that evrytime I go jogging ard e reservoir and now I can. =D
Today's lesson was interesting in the sense that we learnt how to do rescue work out in the deep open sea as well as have a mini expedition to the SG flyer area. Though it was tiring and difficult to stay on course, the scenery out there was worth the effort. I shall clock my kayaking hours during this vacation and aim to move on to a 2-star... more practice pls!
Kayaking for these 2 days was great and I'm sure I would grow to like it.
Today's lesson was interesting in the sense that we learnt how to do rescue work out in the deep open sea as well as have a mini expedition to the SG flyer area. Though it was tiring and difficult to stay on course, the scenery out there was worth the effort. I shall clock my kayaking hours during this vacation and aim to move on to a 2-star... more practice pls!
Kayaking for these 2 days was great and I'm sure I would grow to like it.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
My very first blog!
finAlly here's my very own blog...! welcome welcome...
Well, I'm not really used to the idea of blogging because all along I've had the habit of penning down my thoughts in my diary. Traditional ain't I? that's me... Nonetheless, I would still like to join in the crowd and create a platform for myself to share the fond memories and experiences I've had.
The uni exams has long ended and it's been 2 weeks into my 3-mth-long summer vacation... yayness! like finally la! A time to chillout with my dear friends whom I haven't seen for months, gain new experiences and enjoy myself to the fullest before the vicious cycle of lec-tut-projs -exams repeats itself again next sem. To think that I still have 4 more sems to clear before grad...Too long or too short? Seems like I'm in between. Too long because I still have to go through the worst which is not over yet and too short as I'm graduating soon like in 2 yrs time. Sometimes I can't help but wonder whether I have really reached the maturity level of a 21year old grown-up. The childishness in me hasn't changed...
To sum it all : I'm just a i-dun-want-to-grow-up girl living in a you-have-to-grow-up-kind of world...
Enough of rantings. Here's the to-do-list on my mind for this suMmer:
1) Spend as much quality time as possible wiTh my family whom I've really been neglecting due to my stay in hall for the past 2 yrs...
2) Catch up with my dearest frens whom I haven't seen for quite some time... really missed the fun I had with those peeps... so OUtiNGs, OutiNGs and more outingS to come!!!
3) Earn $$$ and most imptly, to save them for my next holi trip, diving course! Shld be attainable pRovided I save my keep from my temp admin job cum part time tutor cum part time events job wisely... I SHALL NOT succumb to the temptations of online shOppIng... haha but then again, its really cheap and worth it to shop online...
4) Continue to strive towards my resolutions set at the start of the year and make impactO!
5) Complete the upcoming races: Saucony race (15km) and Adidas Sundown Marathon 2009(42km)
6) Continue to make a difference to the CDAC SHG kids as well as to my 3 kids: Junel, Lee Yang and Nurul.
7) Learn something new like kayaking (in the process), korean language ( in the process), hip hop dance(maybe at CCs? cos I really envy those who can really groove well to the beat of music. So must make a personal breakthrough despite being bad @ body coordination)and maybe pick up photography? but i need a proper camera to start with...
8) ChionG Korean, HK dramas, taiwanese variety shows and Bleach anime that I've missed...
9) PLan a mini getaway if time permits... Maybe some diving trip to neighboring island like Tioman or Rendang? I feel like taking a deep plunge into the ocean to unravel the wonders that lies beneath..DIVING! Or some shopping trip in m'sia...whatever it is, I really need to take a breather away from the concrete jungle that i'm in.
10) Seek solace in the comfort of novels coupled with songs from my fav radio station YES 933 would make my days swee enough!
11) during exams: input>output = weight gain
after exams: output> input = weight loss thru exercise...
work, sleep, play!!! =D
Well, I'm not really used to the idea of blogging because all along I've had the habit of penning down my thoughts in my diary. Traditional ain't I? that's me... Nonetheless, I would still like to join in the crowd and create a platform for myself to share the fond memories and experiences I've had.
The uni exams has long ended and it's been 2 weeks into my 3-mth-long summer vacation... yayness! like finally la! A time to chillout with my dear friends whom I haven't seen for months, gain new experiences and enjoy myself to the fullest before the vicious cycle of lec-tut-projs -exams repeats itself again next sem. To think that I still have 4 more sems to clear before grad...Too long or too short? Seems like I'm in between. Too long because I still have to go through the worst which is not over yet and too short as I'm graduating soon like in 2 yrs time. Sometimes I can't help but wonder whether I have really reached the maturity level of a 21year old grown-up. The childishness in me hasn't changed...
To sum it all : I'm just a i-dun-want-to-grow-up girl living in a you-have-to-grow-up-kind of world...
Enough of rantings. Here's the to-do-list on my mind for this suMmer:
1) Spend as much quality time as possible wiTh my family whom I've really been neglecting due to my stay in hall for the past 2 yrs...
2) Catch up with my dearest frens whom I haven't seen for quite some time... really missed the fun I had with those peeps... so OUtiNGs, OutiNGs and more outingS to come!!!
3) Earn $$$ and most imptly, to save them for my next holi trip, diving course! Shld be attainable pRovided I save my keep from my temp admin job cum part time tutor cum part time events job wisely... I SHALL NOT succumb to the temptations of online shOppIng... haha but then again, its really cheap and worth it to shop online...
4) Continue to strive towards my resolutions set at the start of the year and make impactO!
5) Complete the upcoming races: Saucony race (15km) and Adidas Sundown Marathon 2009(42km)
6) Continue to make a difference to the CDAC SHG kids as well as to my 3 kids: Junel, Lee Yang and Nurul.
7) Learn something new like kayaking (in the process), korean language ( in the process), hip hop dance(maybe at CCs? cos I really envy those who can really groove well to the beat of music. So must make a personal breakthrough despite being bad @ body coordination)and maybe pick up photography? but i need a proper camera to start with...
8) ChionG Korean, HK dramas, taiwanese variety shows and Bleach anime that I've missed...
9) PLan a mini getaway if time permits... Maybe some diving trip to neighboring island like Tioman or Rendang? I feel like taking a deep plunge into the ocean to unravel the wonders that lies beneath..DIVING! Or some shopping trip in m'sia...whatever it is, I really need to take a breather away from the concrete jungle that i'm in.
10) Seek solace in the comfort of novels coupled with songs from my fav radio station YES 933 would make my days swee enough!
11) during exams: input>output = weight gain
after exams: output> input = weight loss thru exercise...
work, sleep, play!!! =D
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